I must say that love/obsession went too far. Now i am trying my best not to think of her all day long. *Cough* It really sucks if all you can do is think of a person and you just can't help it (for over 6 months). How it is that you visit the persons da page about 10-40 times a day... It seems somewhat creepy even to me. That made me overthink too much and freak out on wrong things and times. This fact made me ruin all relationships with the person. I can always ruin the best things in my life xD. Caring about someone is good but caring too much... baaaad. I am glad she can't read it now so i can finally say it out. Anyways when this schoolyear ends i won't be seeing her any more. She must be thrilled that i won't bug her any more. Although this in a strange way it hurts like hell it is probably best like this.

I find that not many people actually read my journal but most of them were just tries to talk with her. Funny huh?

K anyways sorry that you had to read about this. Anyways i am trying to comit more to art from now on. This is an ART site so it should be only about art xD.